Kefaya <3

Okay, so I'm in Ohio now. My mom, sister, little brother and I all drove up here and got here last night to visit family for the holidays. We have all been anxious to meet my new baby cousin Kefaya- my aunt Shirly gave birth to her on July 24th (although she was supposed to be born at the end of October... yeah. So you can imagine how tiny she was when she was born!). She's 5 months old now and she looks like a new born baby; my aunt showed us little outfits that she wore when she was like 1 month old and they legit looked like babydoll clothes- it was crazy!
We got into the house at 2am yesterday and I was up talking on the phone with my boyfriend until like 5. Normally when this happens I wake up at the earliest 12am the next day but as i tossed and turned hearing the voices of my aunt, mom and grandma, realizing that they were discussing my new baby cousin; and that she was infact in the house!, i imediately awoke (at 10am with only 5 hours of sleep... and if you know me you know i looooooove to sleep so this new baby cousin was obviously a huge deal to me).
I got up and grabbed her, fed her and she fell asleep in my arms. We napped together for like 2 hours, it was so sweet; she is the cutest thing! She's half Hunagarian and half Middle Eastern, such a beatiful mix! She looks like her daddy but has her mom's beautiful big blue eyes. I love the way she studies my face, the way she smiles and how she is so expressive with her little eyebrows. I'm brand new to her and she's brand new to me. I can't wait to see how she grows up, and it's going to be different being that I'll only be seieng her 2 times a year. She's my new bestfriend or as my mom says "my little buddy". It's funny how you can have so much love for someone that you don't even know, I've only known her for a couple of hours and i can't get enough of her :)! I just always love babies at that age, if only babies could be babies forever. It's nice when they grow up but they become compltetely different people; but I'm sure she'll be an amazing little girl. That's something that I was always so interested in and plan a doing some studying on, babies, birth and all that crap.(Pictures of me and her that my mom took will be up sometime before i leave Ohio<3)

We Were Once A FairyTale

WE WERE ONCE A FAIRYTALE BY SPIKE JONZE & KANYE WEST
Uploaded by teleTOC. - Full seasons and entire episodes online.

some video that I thought was really cute, sad, funny, and interesting. Well really my boyfriend showed it to me... he said he hoped it would show me to stop drinking so much. bahahhaa<3 Did i mention my love, Kanye West is the main actor? That makes it like 10000000 times better! Enjoy.

bad turned to good; and good is turning to better!

So the past week was a pretty bad one for me, I had like a total fail with an asshole boy, lost my phone, been feeling weird with people... I don't know I was just not happy with the way that things were going; like sleeping all the time and shit and just wishing things would get better. What I realized, with the help of my good friend Izzy.. ayyy, is that when shit is going bad you can't focus on the bad because that's no way to make anything better. You just have to stay positive and things will get better. "Bad things come in threes" so I think that things will be looking up! And just as I needed, the weekend has proved that to be right.
So, Saturday me and Izzy went to h&m got a few cute little things, wen to wholefoods and got so much good food and had like an indoor picnic, dipped to Cat's crib; vibed out there, to some music, blunts, funny videos, laughing at everythinggg it was so much fun. (and it snowed, not the best snow but it was still beautiful) That was my SaturDAY and mind you I haven't chilled with this chick in so long, so it was great, I missed her a lot:) We left after our blunt and I went to soho to meet up with 2 of my homeboys, this is when my amazing SaturNIGHT began. I'll get into that in a bit, it was CRAZY though... best night I had in awhile. Must needed details will be added shortly, I've got to go eat some soup now and try to get started on my homework -____- hoe hum.
But let me just say... Sometimes things have to get really bad so that they can get really good!

bitches get stiches!

My goal for this post is to write down every single "I don't give a fuck quote"... this should be fun! That's kind of how I'm feeling right now so rather than me be like hoe hum, woah is me, wah wah wah, I'm just gonna vent in a more positive, so to speak, ('cause I'm not really sure if not giving a fuck is positive but whadevaaaa)/

I used to give fuck, now I give a fuckless. - Jay Z

and I don't really give a fuck, it's probably best you know. - Drizzy

my attitude is celibate, I don't give a fuck. -Fabolous

But I scream fuck the world man, I'm too young for this. - Lil' Wayne