Thursday, January 28, 2010

:) My Darlin' Baby!



My boyfriend, my bestfriend. I'm going to write some real sweet stuff about him very shortly. (He's probably wondering how I got this picture bahahaa)

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Life is but a dream.





Oh My God, I had the weirdest dream last night.. but it's really unfortunate because I barely remember any of it. All I know is that I was standing in the mirror, as if I was getting ready (for either school, or a party or something). But rather than like putting on makeup and doing my hair and things like that I picked up two "faces", so to speak, and was trying to figure out which one to wear for that night. It's not like each mask looked like a different person, each mask looked like my face but had different makeup and different shaped eyebrows, different earrings, hair styles, etc. The dream came to a bit of a scary part when I realized that this "face changing" maybe wasn't normal but that that was the only way I'd be able to get fixed up for the party. I was unsure if I was supposed to simply put the mask on top of my existing face or take the face I had on, off... and in that case did that mean that really I never had a face? I woke up to the realization that underneath it all my face was blank and that my life, in the dream, was all about changes faces when I needed to. In the dream I woke up before getting up the courage to take off my present face and putting on the new one, my hand was just beginning to peel off the present face... and then i woke up. Strange.





More to come.

Monday, January 25, 2010

I get more ass than a toilet sit.

Okay, so this is why I love my school... one of the many reasons.




Mel Breezey




Aiiiiiight, so there's this girl and her name is Melina Alexis Masullo (like how I know her full government and shitttt). She came to my school I.C.E a year ago in like a week because she got expelled from her Catholic School, thug life.. baddddassss. JUNO! and let me just tell you that I'm so glad she did because if not we wouldn't be such good friends right now. I tell her eeeeeeeeeeeeverything, like legit everything; I don't even have to worry about being like.. "make sure you don't tell anyone" cause obviously she wouldn't. I miss the like week when I came back from Chicago during winter break, I was living with her.. we both started calling it my house and my room and shit cause we just got so used to me living there.. but then of course I had to go back home -__________-.. fuck. lawl. hmm, what else can i say.. I don't even know what I should put down here. She's laying right behind me right now anddd let me just tell you that she's probably the blackest white girl I know. she go hard, ju feel me hahahaha. I make myself laugh. Okay anyways, just thought I should share some of my feelings.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Birthday poem for my baby < 3

I met Superman- the only one who knew how to save me,
he made all the pain go away. Now who could this Superman be?
Superman became my boyfriend and everyday it only got better,
I wish I could be with Superman forever.
I could be crazy, maybe totally insane,
but why is it that you're the only thing on my brain?
I can be with you all day without one word to say,
but I know that no matter what it's going to be okay.
I don't know how you do the things you do,
but somehow you always make me feel brand new.
I know you say you don't want to change who I am,
but I want to be the best 'cause we go together like peanut butter and jam.
I like you so much,
it's become way more than just a crush..
It's the way that you smile and the way that we touch.
All the sweet things you say, always making me blush.
I think Drake can read my mind just like you,
"No adjusting to you, you know just what to do".
He took the words right out of my mouth, how did he do it?
and you're the fucking best, how do you do it?
I knew from the start that you were the one,
you're the sweetest thing since sugar, my sugarpie honeybun.
The way that I feel for you is so strong, this is how it's going to stay.
I know that my job is to never let you slip away.
I want to be your wonderwoman, that's what every superman deserves
Together saving eachother, even when we get on eachothers nerves.
Thanks to you I finally believe that you guys are not all the same.
Maybe one day I'll even have your last name.
I know you're my superman but you've done all the saving you can do,
and it's simply because now I'm with you.





<3

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Kefaya <3

Okay, so I'm in Ohio now. My mom, sister, little brother and I all drove up here and got here last night to visit family for the holidays. We have all been anxious to meet my new baby cousin Kefaya- my aunt Shirly gave birth to her on July 24th (although she was supposed to be born at the end of October... yeah. So you can imagine how tiny she was when she was born!). She's 5 months old now and she looks like a new born baby; my aunt showed us little outfits that she wore when she was like 1 month old and they legit looked like babydoll clothes- it was crazy!
We got into the house at 2am yesterday and I was up talking on the phone with my boyfriend until like 5. Normally when this happens I wake up at the earliest 12am the next day but as i tossed and turned hearing the voices of my aunt, mom and grandma, realizing that they were discussing my new baby cousin; and that she was infact in the house!, i imediately awoke (at 10am with only 5 hours of sleep... and if you know me you know i looooooove to sleep so this new baby cousin was obviously a huge deal to me).
I got up and grabbed her, fed her and she fell asleep in my arms. We napped together for like 2 hours, it was so sweet; she is the cutest thing! She's half Hunagarian and half Middle Eastern, such a beatiful mix! She looks like her daddy but has her mom's beautiful big blue eyes. I love the way she studies my face, the way she smiles and how she is so expressive with her little eyebrows. I'm brand new to her and she's brand new to me. I can't wait to see how she grows up, and it's going to be different being that I'll only be seieng her 2 times a year. She's my new bestfriend or as my mom says "my little buddy". It's funny how you can have so much love for someone that you don't even know, I've only known her for a couple of hours and i can't get enough of her :)! I just always love babies at that age, if only babies could be babies forever. It's nice when they grow up but they become compltetely different people; but I'm sure she'll be an amazing little girl. That's something that I was always so interested in and plan a doing some studying on, babies, birth and all that crap.(Pictures of me and her that my mom took will be up sometime before i leave Ohio<3)

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

We Were Once A FairyTale





some video that I thought was really cute, sad, funny, and interesting. Well really my boyfriend showed it to me... he said he hoped it would show me to stop drinking so much. bahahhaa<3 Did i mention my love, Kanye West is the main actor? That makes it like 10000000 times better! Enjoy.